3 Years....

Is it possible that James has been gone for three years? How does life go by so quickly? Today is a hard day. Last year I did okay but for some reason today isn't as easy.


It's hard to believe that it's been three years since I have run my fingers through that blonde unruly hair, gazed into those penetrating deep blue eyes or heard that notorious grunt that meant "leave me a lone".


He would start school this coming fall. He has two beautiful little sisters that he would be running and playing with..if things had turned out differently. Don't get me wrong. I accept the plan for James' life. I understand that he brought a deeper understanding of life and love to many people...but, I'd rather have James back.


January is just hard. Mamalee died last January too and now my Grandpa Lew is in ICU. He is doing very well and will come home tomorrow...but, still...makes me a little wary. My faith is a little lacking at the moment I guess.


Sorry I haven't posted pictures of Christmas yet. My computers are having HUGE issues. I will post a happy post as soon as I can.